ok i'm starting this shit back up for reals...
so i'm single again. I hate myself sometimes because i am so fickel. I really liked this last girl and i went and fucked it all up (again). I mean i guess its all for the better, I have problems when it comes to keeping relationships. I either stick around WAY after it was over, or i meet the right person too soon, try and make it work, and then break their hearts when i realize i'm not ready. I am so weird about relationships too, like as soon as i feel like i'm depended upon at all I like can't take it, but if i'm not depended on then i think somethings wrong. I guess one day i'll be ready and want a real relationship with anniversaries and engagements and committal and all that jazz, but i am still young and i guess i still want to be retarded. I guess i'm only stable enough for one. other than my dumb personal problems life is good... the band is doing very well... bills are mostly paid... my job is still stable. I have a new FLICKR account. uh yeah. i'll think of more to post later.